It has been almost a week since the boys an I moved into our new home and we are so so happy. An incredible peace has fallen on our little family and the Holy Spirit has very gently been reaching into the deeply broken parts of each of us and has been pouring in a healing balm. Moving was not easy. It was intense, confusing, complicated and at the same time we had a beautiful anticipation for our new life that was waiting on the other side of this big move.

Packing up a home alone was hard work. I purged, big time. Letting go not only of the physical but also the painful emotions that needed to be left behind. In the lead up to the move a number of things happened. My car died, like beyond help died. Two of my main financial supporters were not able to support us this month and general life got really hard. It was all spiritual. All push back because of the Godly decisions that we were making. Isn’t it always the way? Pushing forward in the calling, in obedience, and then BAM! The enemy freaks out and all hell breaks loose and the way forward seems blocked by all the negative circumstances.


Isaiah 43:18-19

18 “Forget the former things;
do not dwell on the past.
19 See, I am doing a new thing!
Now it springs up; do you not perceive it?
I am making a way in the wilderness
and streams in the wasteland.”

The new way in the wilderness is just so beautiful, peaceful, scenic and full of love. The new way is not a lonely path, I am now joined by a family, a tribe, a community. Loved ones who hold me and the boys so very gently. Ushering us forward into our freedom, embracing and supporting us the whole way.


Our new home is a beautiful cottage on a property belonging to our church. It is peaceful and rural, with lots of land and so many birds. The view is to die for and the children and our pets are the happiest that I have seen them in years, and that for this Mama’s heart is EVERYTHING.


One of the best parts of this move is that we are now within walking distance from our beautiful church. We are excited as this means that we will be able to fully immerse ourselves in the ministry of the church as well as the work that I am doing with Hope’s Anchor.

We have been having a shifting and a changing in the ministry and it is so exciting. I love how passionate Divine Love is not only about our ladies but also about our team. So many of our team members are going through some really hard battles (myself included) and yet His love is gently ushering in healing and growth. It has been exciting to watch how our Hope’s Anchor work is being braided together with the work our church’s ministry Heartstrings Community Project. Love is orchestrating the most beautiful symphony and my heart is overflowing with peace and joy.

I want to say thank you to all of you have been lifting us up and interceding on behalf of our family.

For those who have been wondering, Martin has returned to the UK for the in foreseeable future to be with his mother who is battling cancer. Please keep her in your prayers. I am not at a point where I am free to talk further about him returning to the uk. If you have questions about our situation you are very welcome to email me.

We love and appreciate you all so much, Thank you for believing in the calling and for caring for my precious little family. We would really appreciate your prayers for a vehicle for us so that I can get the boys to their new school which starts on Monday. and we would also appreciate your prayers for new financial supporters to come forward so that I can continue to follow the call here in South Africa.

If you would like to give financially to support us as a family as I lead Hope’s Anchor please do so via PayPal at downseyluff@aol.com or email lindsey.toms57@gmail.com to set up regular giving. Thank you



Love never fails.

Oh my precious precious ones. These 4 are my secret favourites. 😉 I’m not supposed to have favorites… but here we are… my 4 favourites. 🤣❤️ 3 of them hadn’t seen me for 4 months and we were so excited. K burst into tears and J wouldn’t let me go. I was scolded for being away for so long and then forgiven because our mutual love for each other is very real. They are reason why Divine Love has placed me here for such a time as this. K has literally climbed the fence of rehab twice and yet I will NEVER give up on her. J has told me time and time again that she will never leave the trade and yet I will NEVER give up on her. Love never gives up. I’ve had so many people give up on me throughout my life, so many times I have ran away, “jumped the fence”, so many times I have refused to believe in better for myself, and yet… Love has never given up on me. NEVER. Our “slogan” is Unconditional Love, Extravagant Grace and Hope for the soul. This is what we live by as a ministry. This is what we offer our ladies and each other. It’s a challenging commitment, especially when we are let down by behaviour and habits. But this is our calling and we have committed to walking in it.

If you would like to support me and my family as we minister to Durban’s most vulnerable women please donate to our PayPal account Downseyluff@aol.com

Or email lindsey.toms57@gmail.com for our private banking details.

Every single donation is an incredible blessing to us and it keeps us here following the call. ❤️

A place of Hope.

I spent the day with the sweet potatoes. Digging and preparing vines for replanting. I’ve not shared too much with everyone about the direction that we are currently shifting into, so here we go…
As a ministry we have known for a long time that our precious ladies will not be able to heal while still living in the environment where they were so profoundly broken. We have known that they need to be somewhere safe, nurturing, healing and Empowering. Somewhere far from the abuse, drugs, sex industry. We have been praying for an answer. And now we believe that we have one in sight.
In fact we might have 2 options and we are incredibly excited. There is an anticipation that is brewing and although we can’t share everything at this point, I can share my part in all of this.
Essential oils are something I am super passionate about, and I have experienced first hand how healing they can be, not just in a physical level but also emotionally. I always turn to oils before pharmaceutical treatment and I always find that they are an incredible benefit to myself and my family. So naturally when Andrew and Rae shared the idea of starting to grow lavender and rose geranium to turn into oils I jumped at the idea. When up and running it is going to be a perfect opportunity to present to our ladies who are walking into healing. It will give them a beautiful opportunity to learn and grow, they will not need a formal education in order to learn to grow and make oils and oil based products. They will be in a safe and nurturing environment where they can continue to heal and find their true identity. An environment where they can get their hands dirty and their hearts full of love and joy. A place of peace. A home where Divine Love rules and reigns. A place of HOPE. Please join us in praying for this venture. For direction and funding.

Step out.

So today I did a thing… I took a step of faith and ordered 50 lavender plants for our essential oils field. We started to prepare the ground a couple of weeks ago and we have mulch to lay, we just needed the plants, but we don’t have the funds. 😂🤦🏻 Today I was contacted by a friend who is ordering lavender plants for her garden nursery and wanted to know if I wanted to get in on her order. So I did. 😂😂😂 So yeah. I need funds. I feel like I’ve been playing it easy recently when it comes to faith, just doing what I felt was right, but no big audacious moves. Until now. I need R1000 cash, by tomorrow. That’s £57, or $70. I k ow that the essential oils field and eventually the essential oils company is a heaven plan, one that will be used to bring healing to our ladies after they have walked through detox. So I’m full trusting the calling, the vision and the Father for its provision.

If you would like to help reach my goal please donate to my PayPal account Downseyluff@aol.com

Or email me at vashti.downs@gmail.com for my UK banking details.

Every penny helps us get one step closer to our Drem becoming a reality.


Today I stood in front of my church family and committed myself and the boys to serving and becoming a part of the family. This was a big move for me as I have battled to find home for years. Its a big commitment. My empath gift causes me to withdraw and isolate often and to stand in front of my friends and let them know that I am all in was not a natural action for me. As Mike and Paula prayed over myself and the boys a complete peace and sense of coming home washed over me and I knew that for the first time in so very long that my heart is safe here. Here I can truly rest. Here I can truly be myself. Here I can truly heal. We are so blessed.

If you would like to help support Vashti, her family as she works lead the Hope’s Anchor team and the ministry they have with the homeless and sex workers of Durban, please use her PayPal account


If you live in the UK and would like to support the family with monthly direct debits please contact lindsey.toms57@gmail.com for more details

Thank you


This is Zama. Before Christmas she was picked up by a client who then drove her to some sugar cane fields. Another car of men met them there and the horror of that night began. Gang raped, humiliated, and videoed the whole time. For hours. They made her sick. Gave her HIV. Signed her death sentence. Her drug addiction hit an all time high when I found her a couple of months ago with a needle stuck in her foot, heroin still waiting to be injected into her vein. She was almost unconscious close to over dosing. A gang of addicts surround her and a police officer and paramedic talking to them all about the situation they all found themselves in. I didn’t stop as they seemed to have the situation under control and I had my kids in the car. Then zama disappeared. Its been 2 months and I’ve been so worried. Today I saw a few of the other people who she used to beg with, I pulled over to ask them if they had seen her.
Zama passed away on the streets, alone around 6 weeks ago. Her body and soul so broken that she couldn’t fight any longer.
Zama I’m so sorry. I’m sorry that I couldn’t do more. I’m sorry that they hurt you so bad. I’m sorry that you were in so much pain. I love you my friend. Enjoy heaven, I know you are there.
#weseeyouweloveyou #unconditionallove #extravagantgrace #hopeforthesoul #missionarylife


We have found our home. Our “church” home. As an empath it is incredibly difficult to find a church that works for me. Most places of worship leave me feeling drained and emotionally depleted. Non empaths do not understand how this works. Being around large groups of people can be hard to contend with when you have empath tenancies. The energy of other people impacts us in both positive and negative ways and being in situations where there are tight crowds or people sitting close together can impact me in a negative way. I’ve searched for a church home for so long, feeling like a flake along the way. Settling in longing for a church family to be my church family, only to realise after a while that it is not the right fit. There’s not necessarily anything wrong with the church, but rather my needs are different and I have to take them into consideration, along with the needs of my 3 children, one of whom is also an empath. It’s been so hard not understanding why I just don’t fit. And then I was drawn to Frontier Church which is lead by my sister friend @paulalstrydom and her husband Mike.
The first service that the boys and I attended we knew we were home. Peace and calm and nourishment. Friendship, community, family. Everything that we had been searching for. Divine Love so evident and very present. I am excited. The journey is different and so so so good.

If you would like to help support Vashti, her family as she works lead the Hope’s Anchor team and the ministry they have with the homeless and sex workers of Durban, please use her PayPal account


If you live in the UK and would like to support the family with monthly direct debits please contact lindsey.toms57@gmail.com for more details

Thank you