I spent time with the lavender this weekend. As I was working on them I asked for the Father to speak to me. The past couple weeks I have been battling with trying to figure out where I fit. Life has changed so completely that I hardly recognise it or myself. That’s hard. So this weekend we visited Hope Farm and took some time out together as a family.
As I sat in the lavender garden pulling up weeds the Father began to speak, a quiet calm whisper directly to my heart.
He shared 2 things with me. Firstly as I pulled up weeds from around the individual lavender plants I noticed that where there were more weeds the lavender was stunted and prevented from growing and flowering, the weeds were preventing the lavender from flourishing. As I took this in the Spirit whispered “protect your peace”. I had been so busy striving to find my foothold, make room for myself in ministry again, that I hadn’t taken time to protect my peace. I wasn’t protecting my energy and the enemy was beginning to wear me down and suffocating my peace with busyness. As I sat in the dirt, pulling up the weeds I asked Him “how? How do I protect my peace?” again the Spirit whispered, “by being still with Me. Just like this. Right here, in this moment you are building up your strength and focusing on My voice.”
Exodus 14.14 says “the Lord will fight for you, you need only be still.”
Psalm 46.10 says “be still and know that I am God.” In the Passion translation it says “surrender your anxiety! Be silent and stop your striving and you will see that I am God.”
SURRENDER YOUR ANXIETY.
Anxiety and fear are the destroyers of your peace.
When I read the Passion translation I knew that He was speaking directly to my heart. Lavender is known for its calming and peace giving properties, this is the main reason why we decided to use lavender to start the essential oils garden. The weeds were suffocating the lavender, rendering it useless in its potential to be turned into a peace bringing essential oil, just like anxiety renders me unable to walk in His peace.
After pulling up the weeds and cutting back the peppermint I started to move the rocks back that circle each lavender plant.
When we put the lavender into the ground the chickens came running to scratch and peck through the freshly turned soil, and although this is great for the soil and the chickens it wasn’t so great for our lavender babies, so we took rocks and circled each plant so that they were protected from the chickens scratching.
The rocks hemmed in the lavender, protecting and giving it a chance to root well.
Now was the time to move the rocks out a few inches so that the lavender had room to fill out and take up more space. Chance to grow, expand, flourish, take up space.
Then the Spirit spoke this scripture to my heart.
Isaiah 54 1-6. Message translation. “Sing, barren woman, who has never had a baby.
Fill the air with song, you who’ve never experienced childbirth!
You’re ending up with far more children
than all those childbearing women.” God says so!
“Clear lots of ground for your tents!
Make your tents large. Spread out! Think big!
Use plenty of rope,
drive the tent pegs deep.
You’re going to need lots of elbow room
for your growing family.
You’re going to take over whole nations;
you’re going to resettle abandoned cities.
Don’t be afraid—you’re not going to be embarrassed.
Don’t hold back—you’re not going to come up short.
You’ll forget all about the humiliations of your youth,
and the indignities of being a widow will fade from memory.
For your Maker is your bridegroom,
his name, God-of-the-Angel-Armies!
Your Redeemer is The Holy of Israel,
known as God of the whole earth.
You were like an abandoned wife, devastated with grief,
and God welcomed you back,
Like a woman married young
and then left,” says your God
This scripture has come up throughout my life on so many occasions and during so many seasons. Each time it has encouraged me to keep moving forward in my calling. And even now during this season of unknowing, I am encouraged to keep dreaming big, keep reaching out, not letting any situation or fear hold me back from growing and flourishing. He has spoken promises over my life, including more children, joy, a home, a legacy, and over the years anxiety and fear have taken my focus off His promises for me.
As I moved each rock, giving the lavender space to grow and breathe I spoke out the promises, calling them forth in faith.
I don’t have all the answers that I desperately want right now, but I do have the answers that I NEED.
Protect your peace and keep moving/expanding.
I don’t know how it will look, but I do know that the Spirit will lead my steps.
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Vash and the boys xxxx