The past few weeks have been quite a journey. Hudson fell very sick with not only a chest and ear infection, but also Hand, Foot and Mouth disease. Then during week two of his illness I also became ill. So three weeks of fighting sickness has been brutal. We are both on the mend but still a little weak.
Today is Wednesday and we were supposed to be feeding our homeless friends down at the beach front. I really wasn’t feeling strong enough and wanted to stay in bed but then something happened. We found out that due to unforseen circumstances we were not going to be handing out food today.
The morning was canceled. You know some times these things happen and that’s OK. But it didn’t sit right with us to just leave them all down there waiting for us without an explanation. Communication with the homeless is hard as they do not have cell phones, so Mart and I decided to drive down to let everyone know what the situation was.
And man are we glad that we did!!!
As we pulled into the parking lot we were met by well over 100 people, all lined up waiting for their packed lunch. My heart dropped knowing that we had nothing for them other than our apologies, which to he honest felt really empty.
Due to sickness I hadn’t seen our people for three weeks and I was greeted by so many hugs I lost count. My heart was instantly lifted, and then I had to address them all, tell them that we had nothing for them…. I felt sick. How do I tell these people that we have nothing, that the food that they had come for was not actually there? So I just bit the bullet and told them, and the response that I got was nothing short of God.
One guy stepped forward, and for a second I thought that he was going to let me have it, but he looked me straight in the eye and said this… “Yes we are hungry, but we are not here for the food. We are all here because we know that you love us and you will pray for us.” And EVERYONE nodded and agreed with him!
Cue tears and sobbing from me!!!!
Mart looked at me and chuckled. And we both knew that this was conformation for us.
You see this morning we were both battling questions. I was feeling physically ill and emotionally drained, and yet we knew what was required of us.
Micah 6:8 “And what does the Lord require of you? To act justly, love mercy and to walk humbly with your God.”
In a nut shell He requires our obedience, even when we don’t feel like it. He requires us to love, even when they are being unlovable. He requires us to SHOW UP, even when that “showing up” requires us to humble ourselves and let people know that we have nothing humanly to offer. You see its not about the food, or the clothes or the toiletries, its ALL about showing up. Being there. Sticking it out. Even when life is hard, uncomfortable, challenging or down right impossible. He requires us to SHOW UP. Its ALL about HIM and His LOVE. All He requires of us is to show up and He will do the rest.
Ministry is hard work. And often we get caught up in how we are feeling, how we are doing, we forget that our calling isn’t about us. Its about Him, His Kingdom, and the people to whom we are called.
Today a hungry homeless man reminded me of that. And for that I am beyond thankful.
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Thank you for your kind support and prayers. We love you all.
Mart, Vash, Joe Jesse and Hudson. xxx