One of the girls that we are very close with is battling so much. Yesterday Cands and I went to the brothel to spend some time with her. We took all the brothel girls handbags filled with toiletries and as they were all still in meth comas we sat and spent some time with Mik. Cands asked her when she was going to be done with this life, she said shes just not ready to face things.
These girls of ours use drugs in order to survive what is happening in their minds and hearts. When they come off the drugs they have to then face the trauma, the PTSD, the profound pain that was previously masked by their drug of choice. Mik told us yesterday that she doesn’t see herself as an addict, she isnt greedy with her drugs, she doesnt binge, she doesnt use a lot, she just uses the minimum she needs to be able to keep the trauma at bay. My heart aches because what she had just described to me was the definition of addiction.
Denial is a coping mechanism. The majority of girls deny just how much they use and how dependent they are. They deny how sick they are. They deny the trauma. They deny the pain. Because if they admit it all they might just fall apart.
The beautiful thing is that now that they have us they are learning that they can be open and honest with the truth. And they know that we will NEVER give up on them. That nothing they ever tell us will cause us to turn away from them. We have proven over and over that the love that we carry, the love that we offer is the all consuming, unconditional love of a Father who is passionate about the lives of His daughters.
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